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Tuesday, October 20, 2009

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Lets forget about the spam thing,
yesterday till today just felt empty..
friendship?
seems like cass and i have driffed apart..
thats how i personally feels,
maybe its just my own thinking thats all.
but sometime life seems werid,
with people around that trying
to destroy you ?
just like that spam thing..
even my mouth is saying & think "nahh its ok"
but deep down i do feel some kinda of ....
you know ?
But yeahhh, forget it..
i asked cass to go out wif me..
she rejected...
always i try to fake a smile infront of her..
making her feel that i am alright,
but sometime i wanted to tell her
what happen to me,
but she's busy wif telling me
her and her boyfriend stuff like that
i did not wan to make her thinks that
my stuff is more impt..
i felt ,
being good friends is like,
panters should understand each other more,
and compare good friends and boy friends
sad to say that she maybe choose boy friends,
rather then being wif me...
i am not trying to say evil things about her.
she may read it one day.
but this is how i feel,
if for me,
boy friend and good friend
i would have to choose good friend.
tmr, not going to school,
going out wif nuer..
stressing over lots of stuff..
sometime i hope he will understand me..
i move house i need time to settle down...
need time to set up phone..
i cannt go out,
as he should know
i just come out from court..
i can't do anything silly now..
i need wait another court date 2 months later.
i really hope that u can understand..
i am not here trying to say
u dont understand or wdv shiit.
soo yeahhs. feeling much more bettter
after saying all out..
keep it down inside stuff me to death.
wheather is boyfriend of goodfriend
they all are very impt..
cause w/o it....
i dono how am i going face the world..
i wanted to say i am stress
over lots of things..
even i may smile inside school..
or even outside..
but inside me is not really smile-ing
going out with outside friends
is just the way i try not to think about past...
about fuucking life...
it tired to think about it..
although life may be soo simple
as other ppl think..
but to it,
it like freaking hell.

-sign off-

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