K-athyyy

2010-04-07T02:55:00.000-07:00

Heys!

hahaha,

ok maybe you are right.

so you can misunderstand me

whatever you wan,

i don't wan to explain to you anymore,

maybe you are just too senstive.

or whatever i must say.

but yeahh, i am tired of explain-ing,

maybe you think i am trying to push all the blame ?

haha but yeahh . .

you can think whatever you wan,

no one will stop you.!

or write anything you like. yeahh ?

you treat sister too easy...

a real friend will not misunderstand.

they won't get angry easily,

before they get angry, they will get

to know whats going on 1st.

rather then think think herself,

hais i don't feel like talking about it!.

hmmmm..

i miss my boyf. waiting for him to come home !

haha

.. i shall go audi awhile.

cya!

-sign off-

2010-03-29T19:11:00.000-07:00

Kath's is sad..
fight with classmates.
seriously, your are being damn fuucker. ?
make me run here run there,
your think is funny ? .
Just remember what your have done,
i will doubble back for your.
life is full of thing that you can't expect.
let me start a fresh.
i miss my baby..
i miss her. (:
hate-ing school more and more..
when will i love my school ? D:
let me end here.

-sign off-

2010-03-28T18:05:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm, guys,
seriously my tummy pain..
why all this happen to me..
i am scare,
i am worried.
i love my boyf.
i know he love me as well,
but evenerythings seem to be joking,
with both of us.
sister's..
has gone now i left with nothing, but youhh,
what if one day i lost youhh ? ..
seriously do i have more sister?
why am i thinking of the old memory
that we both sister have ?
am i the only one who is thinking,
of you are thinking as well ? sister .. ?
i dont wan to say the name,
but hopefully you know who are youhh. (:
chalet.. things, i really did plan.
i told my stead i wanna open one chalet on
Jun 9th 2011..
cause is my end of probation,
we going to book changi chalet, i told my boyf.
i need one room for my ..
and her boyf. so they don't need to squeeze with other people.
all these i do i know is small thing..
the things you done for me is more then this,..
i all understand, ok now i only can say i regret..
when u say no more sister i got the
chance to say ' no i dont wan '
but i did not..
its all a misunderstand..
maybeall this is fated.. waiting for my sister to be back ? ..
or shall just carry on with my life ? .
have you ever wonder how life is like w.o a friend?
w.o a friend who hears you say your troubble..
now all can i do is to keep everything to myself.
i need someone..
i know boyf.. but sometime
things came to be this way, :
when you and your boyf. are encounter-ing
some issue, who can you run to ?
tell your boyf. what are your worry about ?
it's impossible if you have a brain..
cause he is stressing about that issue too..
have you wonder in this kinda of
situtation all you need is one good friend of yours.
siserhood.
i miss you..
onli this few days.. w.o someone,
every bad things just come up..
everyone think to be deserve a chance..
but to me, i dont think chance will be happen,
cause i encounter many type of friend...
maybe fated to be no chance for me ?
sisters, family, friends, home, freedom,...
it's all gone..
when will i see my life brighten ?
sister i miss youh.

-sign off-

2010-03-18T01:46:00.000-07:00

2010-02-27T20:15:00.000-08:00

Cassandra fuucker! LOL.

2009-12-26T20:57:00.000-08:00

2009-12-23T03:18:00.000-08:00

So long no post...
Everything seems fine,
nest year maybe going to YuYing Sec
i dont know is the school going to accpect me or not..
soo everything see faith bahhs.
me and my stead also happy do our own things
he serve his NS,
i do my things :D
Goodluck for my coming next year.
Tmr 24/12/09 is me and my stead
2nd month! o(^0^)o
hehe...
soo long never play audi..
i dont have internet at home soo yeahs,
only go my stead house plays game
maple.
missing him right now...
thinking him right now..
Happy second month my dear... <3
With lots loveeee...
everyday is simple...
go mum shop...
Then come home sleep....
eat ....
nothing more...
Soo yeah. end post here :D

-sigh off-

2009-11-22T03:07:00.001-08:00

Sian so long nv post. ><
hmmm my birthday just ended.
not bad... i recieve present from people :D
most one i like,
is the neackless that baby send me (:
even my mum says it nice o(NoN)o.
:D anyway,
waiting for court date,
to go in hostel.
The Ten hostel dont wan to accept me,
so yeah maybe going grace heaven
or girls home lor.
Soo yeahh,
this few days, keep hang out with summer,
and stead bahh..
not very busy,
but is like damn free,
cause is like i only
meet my stead at night,
then morning summer need work,
so i meet summer after her work around 3 pm.
morning to 3 is like fuucking free~ D:
ok going to eat.
bye :B

-sign off-

2009-11-07T03:59:00.001-08:00

2009-11-07T03:48:00.000-08:00

Peace... :D

going in hostel 2 weeks time,

dont know birthday how celebrate ><

hehe...

but feeling hurts,

this few days keep fight with family memebers.

siann of life. hate life...

boredd of it.

cannt use comp D:

siann... T__T

okkays. sign off here.

2009-10-21T06:52:00.001-07:00

Muacks <3

Love gans.

Love Baby. :B

2009-10-21T03:11:00.000-07:00

Spam
Spam
Spam..
Just come back from amk,
with nuer..
yesterday told her i emo-ing..
cause fight with stead,
then she say
"come we go shopping forget everything"
lols, i got a cute nuer... ;duh
soo yeahh when out wif her..
trying make her laugh and one of her other friend
but everything seems to be like fake-ing..
laughs.. anyway
at amk, i take neoprint wif her..
i going post it at aaround 8.
cus getting pic at 8 lols.
so waitt yeahh ? ;duh
<3>
Miss Baby ><

-sign off-

2009-10-20T05:11:00.000-07:00

Lets forget about the spam thing,
yesterday till today just felt empty..
friendship?
seems like cass and i have driffed apart..
thats how i personally feels,
maybe its just my own thinking thats all.
but sometime life seems werid,
with people around that trying
to destroy you ?
just like that spam thing..
even my mouth is saying & think "nahh its ok"
but deep down i do feel some kinda of ....
you know ?
But yeahhh, forget it..
i asked cass to go out wif me..
she rejected...
always i try to fake a smile infront of her..
making her feel that i am alright,
but sometime i wanted to tell her
what happen to me,
but she's busy wif telling me
her and her boyfriend stuff like that
i did not wan to make her thinks that
my stuff is more impt..
i felt ,
being good friends is like,
panters should understand each other more,
and compare good friends and boy friends
sad to say that she maybe choose boy friends,
rather then being wif me...
i am not trying to say evil things about her.
she may read it one day.
but this is how i feel,
if for me,
boy friend and good friend
i would have to choose good friend.
tmr, not going to school,
going out wif nuer..
stressing over lots of stuff..
sometime i hope he will understand me..
i move house i need time to settle down...
need time to set up phone..
i cannt go out,
as he should know
i just come out from court..
i can't do anything silly now..
i need wait another court date 2 months later.
i really hope that u can understand..
i am not here trying to say
u dont understand or wdv shiit.
soo yeahhs. feeling much more bettter
after saying all out..
keep it down inside stuff me to death.
wheather is boyfriend of goodfriend
they all are very impt..
cause w/o it....
i dono how am i going face the world..
i wanted to say i am stress
over lots of things..
even i may smile inside school..
or even outside..
but inside me is not really smile-ing
going out with outside friends
is just the way i try not to think about past...
about fuucking life...
it tired to think about it..
although life may be soo simple
as other ppl think..
but to it,
it like freaking hell.

-sign off-

2009-10-20T02:36:00.000-07:00

To spamers :D
i dont really give a damn about it, :D
but anyway, for your info,
i am not postitute,
i dont do foc,
andd how i look, i also dont care (:
anyway, dont u feel it
its kinda lame by doing this,
putting w/o name?
and how the freaking hell you know i flirt & hong?
laughs.
this thing will just end,
if u really hate me that much ?
go ahead,
cause i can't stop anything from youhh,
and if you really not happy with me,
anything call and talk?
dont need spam at blog,
and w/o putting name :D
kinda loser. :B
lols,
i am not really angry at all,
so yeahh, if you wan contuine spam rite ?
go ahead,
but just dont let me know who u are .
even i now guess also know who u are liao :B
soo yeahh, bye (: have fun.
laughs.

-sign off-

2009-10-16T03:44:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, now at my mum shop,
laughs... ...
going home soon :D around 7 (:
btw i pass my court date!!!
soo happy can :x
today meet baby ,
we lip fight ~.~ lols,
lame right?
lols, funny die.
then now at my mum shop D:
help people wash hair ;roar
then now talking to bo nehh,
she call me go her house!
siao lang!
lolols, go her house stay,
is either i rape her, or she rape me!
laugh die.
my baby like to do smth,
act cute :x
hahaha!!!
walao, i pass court date,
cannt use comp leii,
later they use
hostel to threathen me!
;roar,
judge soo firece D:
i wanted go buy shoes one,
then hor,
i walking to amk
i suddenly dulan.
mai go buy -.-
den i go my mum shop,
sunday, maybe going escape!!! :B
i wan go hallowen D:
but cannt too late,
see i am still a good girl,
can keep away tempetion :x
laughs.
i miss my baby TT,
he damn bad -.-
keep bite me. ;roar
lols, ok later he scold me for complain on blog,
ok i go off le, now is 6.57pm
need go at 7, buai <3

-sign off-

2009-10-14T02:05:00.000-07:00

Baby,
i believe now u are confuss,
so am i..
if u choose not to believe it, its ok..
i know when ppl time the feeling.
it sucks to max.
but i just wan to tell u that,
u know today every single i miss you inside
the paper.. its your name..
its your face..
why issit when i in love wif u ,
but you dont trust me anymore? ..
when u say kath.. to me
it hurt..
cus there is no more baby come out from ur mouth..
i dono how take jokes...
i know u give in alot to me lee..
but its just mee.. hard to change, my jealous
my attitude, even my way to talking..
but in the end i still need to say..
i love youhh.
this post is gonna be all about u !
these few days me and youh tgt..
i feel love being wif u ..
i dont trust relationship...
but is youh,
the one hu teach me laugh smile joke.
wif youh i forget all the worries inside my heart.
just you and me..
nth ealse.
put away everything ? ..
i not trying to telll u trust me
all those.
can u feel it.. all this i post is from my bottom
of my heart..
deep deep down.
one serious word : i dont wan to lost you,
i dont wan to break wif you,
i dont wan to leave u ,
i wan youhh..
why does all this come soo sudden,
tmr court date..
everything so suey..
u touch my head and say
" be guai go sleep, dont run for court date "
all the words u told me i nv forget...
it goes into my heart you know ?
even on phone all thing u told me i nv forget..
cus i really love youhh..
even i now crying also no use..
the trust u have has lost..
but just wan u to know..
everything to me now not impt..
even my mouth keep asking u
" baby if i go in hostel, will you go hong gals ?"
but in my heart i know u wont,
cus i can sense that you love me alot alot..
and me too..
i just wan hear u say " no la i wont "
it warm my heart up.
and know whatt ?
baby i really love u alot alot alot..
i wont not write 424 lines of i miss you..
w.o u will run court date,
w.o you i dont think i will still be here posting..
u are realy impt to me..
iloveyouh. <3

2009-10-13T22:55:00.000-07:00

Ehhhh,
My mum keep my lappy,
dont wan let me use for 2 days,
tmr i going to court T___T
i damn scare laa..
i dont wan got hostel!!~
and today,
was my science test and maths paper 2
my science test is cmi one..
my math, all the ques i onli know 10 like that
how to pass -.-
then i do 20 mins done liao,
rest of th time i was writing
i miss you i miss you...
total 424. -.-
i write compo also not that much lor. ;roar. !!!
laughs. u know hu u are (:
if u dont know, u can just go bang the wall and go to hell.!
hehehe xDD
1st thing i go in msn i saw
bo nehh's offline msg.
omg can see how much she miss me ?
LOLS, w/o me she will die!!
mahahaha!!
i think i go inside hostel , i will miss all my sisters.
D: hais, bo nehh i sorry wor ,
when u need me i not there for youhh! ,
nbm i meet u treat u eat (:
eat dao u full full! :B
all thanks to me,
youhh got a good flat nehh like me!!!
Hahahaha..
melvin thanks for everything u have done for me..
:D
wait i hostel home leave i treat u go eat also,
wif bo nehh ! laughs.
bo nehh dont mind rite ? :x
and silent...
i am just not an impt person to youh :D
am i rite ? (:
nbm i dont give a damn anymore..
life sucks that what i am gona say,
i dont think i tonite can sleep well..
tmr HE test, till 9
then i need take cab down to juv court.
cya love one. :D

Huang yu <3
Bo nehh <3
Melvin <3
Benson <3
Jerlynn Twinneh <3
Ahmin <3
Cassandra <3
Liting Nuer <3
Oscar Daddy <3
Bryan Kor <3
Lenoard <3
Desmond Kor <3
Valerie <3
Nabillah <3
Chrsyan <3
Esabella Sister <3
MOSS <>
Huixin Darling <3
Hayden <3
Sherlyn Dear <3
Shirlyn Sister <3
Clement <3
JH <>
Aldric <3
PohChing Meii <3
Anthea <3
Alvin <3
Suyi Mummy <3
Joey <3
Wangzi <3
Ryannn <3
Ivan <3
Nai xin <3
Yunfong Jie <3
Edaaaaa <3
KayEn Laughs <3
Waffle So call "Sex friend" when we nv even meet!! <3
Dominic DiDi <3
Tiammiee <3
Jesslyn Mummy <3
-JESS baby <3
Henry (hongster nv die) <3
JESSCIA Nuer <3
Chintengzxc <3
Damien <3
Qitai Kor <3

Thats all <3
:B

-sign off-

2009-10-10T03:56:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm,
a saterday D: ,
counting down to 15oct.
Dono i can pass the court update ornot,
people all telling me that ,
they got feel i will be going in hostel. D:
i have a good PO,
you know she talk to me,
cheer me upp..
sometime i think i am be-ing bad toward people
hu treat me really very good..
I am tired..
is like i go hostel nbm,
but at least call my mum give me a phone ? -.-
zzzz.. she being soo unreasonable sometime.
she naggs alot alot alot..
You may say,
parents all naggs whatt.
i unerstand that..
Haiss..
i now playing maple, soo siann,
some of the quest i dono what they talking -.-
everything now to me soo fuuck up. D:
Anyway, let not talk about sadd thing,
on firday, during sch hours,
laughs, Nabillah and valerie kissed me
LOLOLOL, i was like stun tio :x
ok laa i felt soo loved wif them <3
haha, then valerie pour 28 eclips in my mouth!!!!!
Omg laa , is like damn hot and cold bodoh.!!!
Hahaha xD but its fun,
after i eat finnish all,
den i asked for mentos,
her face expression was like " wow "
after eating 28 elcips still can eat mentos :XX
funny die laa!!!.
LOLS, then i talk to bo nehh on msn,
webcam her, LOL
she damn cute laa.
i was like laughing all the wayy see her face,
seriously so look not badd :x
i felt compare wif her i look so buang D:
hahaha, anyway bo nehh has gone to msia
for 2 days liao .... D:
miss her leii, dono be4 court date will see dao her on9 ornot.
i dont really have close sis in audi, cause i felt that
sis in audi is hard to be trust!,
LOLS but me and bo nehh, everyday joke like fk.
xDD soo miss her alot alot D:
hope she will come back sg as soon as possible <3
Hehehe, sat can sleep till late late soo shiok >.<
Maple felt abit boredd. D:
Hais.. life soo sucky D:
ok i go back play maple le ;duh
buaiisx
-sign off-

2009-10-05T06:57:00.000-07:00

Long time no posting,
i have been playing wonderland this few days.
audi just mia bahhs. ;duh
this few days alot thing happen,
i am tired..
grace, i dont mind u biitch about me,
you know what ?
i also dont mind u come in and spam my tagg blog.
cus i dont give a damn ? O:
ohhh yeah,
if youhh wan contuine talk back about me,
pls add more oil, or u need more fire to blow it up more?
all th words youhh say it soo un-true,
maybe some is,
i make laoshi cry... ?
ohh yes i did.
that is just some of my parts that laoshi cry.
so dont talk too much rubbish to it. :D
my hand is off from youhh.
i wont got the free time to call my outside fren,
scold u or beat u,
i dont wan find this lame tai ji wif youhh,
some kind of wasting time,
and energy. ;lala
anyway, my life sucks..
is my fault for smoking in school,
i dont mind ppl scolding me, cus i argee,
it really my fault.
i kena catch smoking in sch.
and my mum know about it..
i think it time to wake up..
PO is right..
everyone done so much things for me..
now no one trust me..
wdv i say they would't care or borther.
Hais..
hostell.. let it be.. i have to face it..
it life bahh,
i can't do anything foolish now..
i cannnt kill myself. ~.~
stupid ..
go in hostel wdv i dont care.
since my mum wants it..
Then let it be..
i am tired of crying..
even i say i wont touch cigg again,
no one will believe it anymore.
one last word to say to everyone hu help me out.. :
i am sorry. i dont desevered your help.
-sign off-

2009-08-26T22:19:00.000-07:00

Hey,
LOLS,
i am boredd :X
hmmmm, Just now during maths
common test,
Ma De we hear ppl humming,
but i saw they all sleeping,
hai de limbu cannt sleep well
during maths test,
Wdf la i dont even know anything -.-
sure fail die me.
andd, i damn dulan yesterday
my stupid audi cpl pangseh me
knnn. ! ROAR :X
chaoda miss die youhh laa :B
andd andd JIAWEI laogong ,
you are damn freaking sweet tuhh me (: <33
Des, you, YES you! are stupid duper noob shiit and toh
LOLLLS.
Twinnny mai saddd,
you sad i sad lei.
Hurt my feeling sia
dont emo emo i dont like D:
see liao wo heart pain pain wor.!
ANDDD last,
MOSS, i very sscare i fall in love with you lei,
you told me you are girl,
tmd you sound like boy totaly siol -.-
still call me meet you!
Mai la i scared tio rape :X
LOLLLS.
i just simpity hate ..............
i wish that you dont exist in this world
you bring me hurt to my life,
you ass.
that person is not anyone from this blog
that i poste so dont worrry :D
he just a suck cock person hu dont know anything
life sucks manzxzxz D:
ROARRRR.
kath off-
Miss her ? :P <3

2009-08-23T17:33:00.000-07:00

Ehh ehh,
tmd today almost late for school,
heng i chiong to school
by take-ing TAXI .__.
wdf waste my money $13.06
can buy on 10k a-cash D:
nehh nehh la,
my clock ma ma si!
nv wake me up D:
stupid siol -.-
ohh btw my house internet cannt use,
tmd cannt blog soo dead my blog -.-
and that si ~MOSS~ ma de,
you no lj :x
show me that stupid poste,
make me yesterday night never sleep well,
keep think and think =p
still now black panada eye T___T,
u buy me lotion to pay back my black panada eyes D:
u pork neh neh :X
-CHAODA bo cum :x
i got nehh laa,
DUA NEHH HOR!
>:D
u cum half way bo le ,
cannt fuuck one,
cmi doing it :x
go learnn leii <3>
i teach you!!
mahahaha ! ~
Hmmm, thats all for today :B
-Kath off

2009-08-07T06:24:00.000-07:00

Hmm..
today see SAMH conseller.
ok i know my illness.
but sometimes my mum
seems like does't care at all.
i felt sad when my mum go wif me
to see conseller and on the way back
saying things like " they talking rubbish "
it hurts me.
even i also dont wan to have this kind
of mood swing.
but..
you see sometimes thing is not like you wan
and it will come true.
thats life.
know what i am sick of seeing doctor.
my mum and stepdad does't even care ?
sometime just felt that i am not their childs
who does not wan a family who cares for them
but mine family ?
everyone is busying earning money,
they says that they earn money for me.
but is this what i wan ?
i wan their time not money
does money give me happniess ?
NO ?
hais. i just felt sad..
everytime i see doctor
i will feel some werid feeling
i dont wan to see them ?
talk about my stuff ?
it sux.
sometime people tell me
they will be wif me..
but....
all there promise is soo fake
like ex give me soo many promise.
now ppl promise me thing i dont dare
to believe.
its hard.
i just wan to keep everything in myself.
i am single child.
alot people hear that they will say this :
" WOW soo lucky arhh ur mum and dad must love you alot "
-pui- arhh!
loveme alot..
ok ok laa -.-
sometime they dont even care.
i know adult will say,
" they busy ma "
then contuine say
" no work how earn moeny for you "
-.-
adult dont even know " now child "
feeling ! zzzzz.
GOD help me D:

2009-08-02T05:15:00.000-07:00

Everything backs to normal again...
:D
back too real me..
teeheee~
is good be-ing back too single.
w/o worry. :x
thinking noone (:
lols. even its lonely but
is still got someone beside me :x
( you know who you are )
feeling blessed. feeling save .
shhhhh~
see liao this dont say ily!
LOLS.
just love being wif you now.
u are diff from other people.
that how i felt .
but dont know you feel leii :x
haahaa ty alot yea. :D

Kath off-

2009-07-27T02:58:00.000-07:00

Seriously..
i did not ignored you..
when you said that words..
it hurts me (:
but.. its ok de..
sometime it really use to it..
my ex says that too..
you are just too like him..
just that you makes me laugh,
when i am sad..
thx alot..
i really felt being loved by youh.
sometimes, just need time to go back
to the trust you see ?
i really hope you take a real look ,
at me.. i am not like other gals,
to you..
i am really different.
know me.. ?
understand me.. ?
that all i need from you..
sometime i really did not mean it,
to hurt you..
its just be.. being myself, me..
i really cannt change the me now..
and i wan to face you with the real me..
i hate be-ing with stead wearing a fake smile.
that not the stead i wan too look for ?
i love stead that can jokes wif me,
make me laugh..
haahaa..
all this you did it..
but sometimes i felt left out..
i am not that type
who once i on9 i pm or msg youh.
for me i am really not use to it..
but i try my best..
sometime i miss it out..
misunderstanding..
i tot you were busy that why nv pm or msg me.
but i did not know that you are waiting ..
i am sorry..
you know what ..
you did something that i really like it..
you nv give me any promise..
i hate guys who give me promise.
cause its not true..
sorry baby..
but i love you (:
hope you can see this :B

2009-07-25T23:27:00.000-07:00

Just being too tired..
just let go :D

2009-07-22T03:54:00.000-07:00

You all nevar knows,
i have beening emo-ing ,
for soo long..
No one cares ? ,
and i did'nt expect anyone cares.
feeling soo empty inside my heart..
all along ,
i have been wearing a fake smile,
on my fuucking face,
i hate it..
why life is soo tired,
why can't i just give up?
no one really knows it..
all i know is to paste all my anger
inside this fuucker blog..
everytime i piss,
everytime i cry..
who really knows it ?
friends ? hais.
no works.
i just hate schoool.
hate life..
hate myself for being
such a fool, too everyone.
my heart feels damn empty..
its gone, totaly gone,
face my life, wif a fake smile?
you know how tired am i ?
i hate people say
what is past is past,
face your new life..
you know what ?
FUUCK THE WORDS!!!!
everyone around me .....
SUCK UP!
KP!
no one cares me...
all alone in this word full of lies...
full of acting skills..
faith to nxt year??
i gonna slack...
dono why my mood is soo bad..
why am i keep thinking about the
stuid past..
why??? who can tell me...
i hate my life seriously....
simpity hate it...
i should just go die ??
my my mood is soo up and down
even my life also up and down??
why don't it just stay it as normal..
who can tell me why am i facing soo much prob..
D: life sucks.

2009-07-21T04:17:00.000-07:00

Hello peeps. (:
these few days nv go for school,
having Intestine flu..
keep vomit siol..
tummy damn pain D:
feel like die-ing,
keep wan sleep,
no mood eat...
onli eat half blow of soup noddle.
i now still damn tired..
my eyes is like half open..
hahas.
my granny keep nagging me to eat..
but the more she nagg at me,
the more i felt love by her..
i never have that feeling befor.
always i sick no one is around by my side..
i was all alone.. these pass few years.
no matter what i do i am all alone..
one by one..
walls to walls.
face to face..
never feel what is like to have,
someone love youhh by your side..
hope this feeling will nv go away,
i need it .. realli i do.
sometime hope that the time
now will nv go away..
everyone is by my side,
never leave me alone..
family love is just soo diff
from what last time i wan love is,
you will feel more blessed..
haahaa. even i sick..
still can feel love ,
warm hearts beside me..
so sweet..
but my mum..
she will never understand me..
she always think that i porn school..
but i am reali sick..
this morning around 5 +
my aunty call me wake upp
then 1st thing i do is go
to vomit..
they faster call me lie down..
but my mum scolded me..
dono for wht reason..
-.-
i never get the warm love from her be4.
she is my mum...
but why i just can't feel it ?...
why must she be soo cold to me..
always see other my frens
their mum treat them like their baobei..
but when i think about my mum..
she will never be like them sweet and
warm hearted..
i just need her love thats all..
would youhh give it to me ? ..

2009-07-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

This few days being damn busy,
sorry my baby D:
for ps-ing youhh..
but family still need to be loved,
by me too! :D
hope you understand (:
i bring them to vivo,
PrazaSing, cathey,
santosa (:
after i come back ,
i was like damn tried..
but after all,
it was quite fun .
but all the money they spend,
is mine ._.
lmaos.. all my saving gone.
i was quite angry wif them today,
my stepdad brought my mum and
my 3rd aunty ,4th aunty and granny
to east cost eat..
but nv bring me.. so today alone at home..
i felt damn sadd cans?..
they say that i must reach home by 9
so say that i could not go..
i told my PO
she say i can go out de..
just be home by 9..
they dont care
call me stay at home..
i am always alone.. watever good thing
i will nv get it from them,
from small to now
i nv even eat wif my family be4,
always i was th only one eating alone..
finally everyone , every family memebers
is tgt, but .. haiss..
know how i feel?
left out..
hearts breaks into pieces..

-sign off-

2009-07-14T04:17:00.000-07:00

Hmm...
New stead?
hope can have love from him
can feel loved once again ?
all i wan is that we both can be
happy (:

KATHERINE is trying to Forget~
Forget th past! th un-happy things.
Forget bad memerious :D
start afresh!~
hope he can give me strenght
to face my love once again~
face my life with wonderful colours (:
i am just a cat looking in wonders ,
finding a true love ,
but always missed it ,
hope i have choosen a right one.
feeling love is soo sweet ,
but lost it its pain and sad ,
love him like , i love my ex..
love him like , i nevar stead be4.
love him like , how i love my bunnys
just loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee himmmmmm <3
baby ? hehe
love..
you..
<3>
-sign off-

2009-07-10T04:45:00.000-07:00

I just need a shouder,
miss youhh!
miss youhh!
why have you left and leave me
with a empty promise that
you have make to me ..
painful love, painful promise
thinking of you again, and again...
why your shadow dont go away..
the days we were tgt...
hugg.. kiss..
they way you look at me...
makes me heart pain..
i really miss you.. hard to let you go..
seriously
i need you ..
and i hate youhh..!!
because of you,
i have lost faith in guys..
i have lost trust..
at most impt i have lost love in them..
scared to look their eyes..
cause i will find the shadow of youuhh!
LEAVE me alone.. since you choose
not to love mee..
LEAVE me alone since you have broken your promise..
Leave me alone..
not cause of you..
my happieness would not be gone..
i do i see every guys , i can find a little shadow
of youhh from them ??
TELL ME!!
do you still love me??
give me a answer a strenght to love other guys again..
i miss youhh..
i love youhh..
and i hate youhh too..
give me time..
to over come itt...

-sign off-

2009-07-08T23:11:00.000-07:00

LIFE ):

Everyone have been hurt by r/s before,
as for me?.. i do too..
as for th age of 15~18,
so called "Ture Love"
that you wan to find its nevar gonna be true..
so stop believing ..
love is powerfull, but must see where you
use it..
really if you love her/ him soo much
and other side is also doing that too,
nth much to say.. your r/s will last long..
life is still long long away.. your still scared
that one day your cannt find True Love??
everyone at the stage of 15~18 they are
all UNMATURE!
Even you think you are.. maybe yes..
but the one who you love alot..
is she/he mature??
really love her/he
are you willing to take your promise?
once you said you nv change !
everyone has their weakness point,
are you willing to love her and take it
the weakness point that she/he have
and not calling her/he to change away
her/his weakness point?
Love someone is Hard,
girls heart is hard to catch,
what they are thinking, (Means ?_?)
guys are really hard to catch it ..
for we girl also do think that too..
every cpl will have misunderstanding in between (:
is just to see you all how to settle ,
and open de misunderstanding (:
Try Love yourself 1st , and then
love others (: once you know
how to love urself!
love others it will become easy too!
Heart is hard to catch, is just too see
are you willing to take it all the hard way
and wait for her/he ??
If really love her/he
Tell her/he
dont wait till that gal/boy lose feeling
and tired of waiting for you to say tht
i argee.. i love you is hard
to say it if you really mean it..
just open your heart and think
is she/he the right one to say
or is she/he the perfect one for you ?
everyone deserve a chance to jio someone you love/like (:
go for it..
But not at the age of being not Mature (:
life long long way!
What is yours in your future its nevar gonna be change
by anyone.. wait the princess/prince (:
it will come one day! Let FATE do de JOBBBBS (:

-sign off-

2009-06-28T06:29:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow schooling re-opening,
hopes everything change x.x
teachers ,friends , stuff..
changes,
hmm.. during these days,
i really feels werid inside me..
have i really change?
friends around me say i change,
but i really do? D:
anyway i feel that i need
alot of love now ..
to pull me up?..
even i dont like school ,
still must go..
and i need retain again nxt year..
zzzzz..
saded right? ..
haiss.. but neverminds,
falling down again neverminds,
i just need to get someone/something
to pull me up again!!
who will be the SOMEONE and SOMETHING?
hais.. i will be waiting for it (:
Happy schooling all <3>

2009-06-26T07:22:00.000-07:00

Hehehe, HELLO PEEPOS <3
i am back ok it have been a long long way,
but what is done its done (;
nothing can change anything,
its has been long time not online D:
lets don't talk about my past :x
talk about now,
don't ask where i have been or what,
don't worry i am just fine with all things (:
missing school so much,
missing mum, stepdad, frens,
lots more, things not been very well,
doing stupid things x.x
but neverminds (;
blog has been very dead D:
so yea.. hehe cheer me up bahh EVERYONE (:
i reali need love now..
LOVE me HUG me <3

2009-03-26T22:58:00.001-07:00

Hey! not been posting quite a long time..
my aunt just reach sg, 24th march :D
i was rather happy that she is here.
she bring me to pub,
and relieve stress.
she allow me to drink x.x
such a good aunt..
maybe she knows wad i am going through bah,
even sometime she is busy,
she will take time to be wif me,
not like my mum? .. -laugh-
yesterday night..
i read my ex msg,
from de 1st day we msg till de last day we brk.
i was like crying like fuuck..
i was wondering
WHY ...
why i nv hold him tight..
he lost feeling for me?..
..
Trust?..
Faitth
i am reali so scared of all these..
now i am tell all of you!
i hab NO TRUST!
i hab NO FAITH!
let me go..
who can bring de pain away from me..
regret.. reali regret..
take me away from this lonely word?
take me away from this strange word?
its onli me and you..
no one else..
promise?
i hate it..
tiong xim ? ...
NAH! no guys will..
why is my tear dropping when i am posting?..
i shall end here.
-sign off-

2009-03-20T03:23:00.000-07:00

....
my fam..
i tired my best..
tell them to listen me
but did they?
you know is how hard for me
to get them all tgt..
i am reali stress..
blog spammer..
famm.
family..
and
life..
HATE IT!
just all leave me alone..
your will nv tot of how i feel..
would ur?
onli think about urself
dont know that there is more people hu needed your
when they are sad
my frens??
DID YOU COME ??
TALK TO ME??
WHEN I NEED YOU
WHERE THE HELL IS YOU?
the words i wan to hear from you..
is just "kath dont be sad" ..
did you give me ?
what i wan?
you are just no diff
wif my ex..
how they hurt me
is just they way you do to me.
i reali need people to talk to..
WHY CANT UR JUST LISTEN AND DO
WAD I SAY?...
hopless mee..
-sign off-

2009-03-14T13:44:00.000-07:00

[: TO PASSERBY :

hmm.. now is 5:37
cannt sleep well.
because of what the passerby say.
Passerby: i dont know who you are,
but all i know is you are a small kid,
who dont dare say out who are you,
coward? talking behide screen?
it bring you nothing..
all the words you say,
i dont wan to entertain you..
it hurts? reali hurts?
when you talk pls use ur brain..
if you dont hab use ur butt..
just take it as i say all the words to you,
try putting you urself into my shoes?
how would you feel?
have you think of that?
you only 2 sentence makes all my frens
unhappy..
sorry if they scolded you..
they hab their own fault,
for scoldin vugar at you..
i just hope you would stop it?
i am weak.. i know
but no need you here to teach me?
i tryingto act pity?
you may think that,
cus its ur brain not mine!
i can't control you from thinking? can i?
i wish i could?
i betray frens? which fren i betray?
issit you?
tell me who are they? uh?
you insulted all my long years frens.
my ture frens.?
if they hang out wif me longer
they will know de meaning
of betray? that all you mean?
Cassandra? Wang lu?
Shirlene? Stacy?
wad they mean to me?
you mean i betray they all too?
i am reali sad and hurt by ur words?..
pls use ur mind set .. brain and think
wad i do and say?..
am i that bad to you?
i did something wrong ?
you tell me..
i am not scolding you ..
i just telling you how i felt..
that all i wan say to you.. bye
give me ur reply in tag board bahs.

-sign off-

2009-03-06T21:26:00.000-08:00

i quited fam today..
i felt no one trust me.. i am extra am i?
i dont reali like misundersantding..
i told gm about someone hack into my acc..
and hack de fp away..
the nxt morning i go in my acc
my acc satutes was off9..
i did not know y ..
den nxt mins is fp gone i know its hard to believe
if the sitution is like that
but i when off9 at 12.30 i also dk y
people in my bl say i keep on9 and off9
hais.
ok i know i am stupid..
i give my acc ..
i am so sorry..
i felt guit?
i left.. maybe your are more happy and feel more save bahh..
sometime i just donknow how to make your believe everyword
i say its ture.
cus its hard i know. but i am 100% sure that 12.30 am i went back to sleep
only my cpl know..
i off9 ..
and i when to my mum room sleep
i just wan say that no matter how much i explain
you will never care about how i feel
i love~Wanna174~ alot that y i can give in soo much for this fam
its my fav fam bahh..
thx for eveything that your give me
de laughter..
w/o me its better
i really love this fam alot..
firendly? but i cannt find the feeling i hab
in ~Wanna174~ anymore it like changes sudden?
i did soo much fer fam.. e.g. fp.
i wannted to make event..
i still saving money
but it seems like.. chnagese..
anyway hope your can bring me that feeling again bahh.
sorry tea mama and milo and love..
hope your forgive me..

-sign off-

2009-03-05T07:46:00.000-08:00

HEY PEOPLE
IN CASE YOU ARE BLIND!
I SHALL REWRITE MY NEW NO. AGAIN
{98959602} =X

Hmmm..
Hello all!
Anyway today just find a new audi cpl ..
ign -JON don't know will this cpl last..
hope so bahh [:
and today i don't wish to post my pic,
cause i don't have de mood to do so.
and yea look on top of de post!!
anyway i think i will stop posting fer few weeks bahh..
let me cool down abit.. and today i eaten de lolipop he gave..
haha i feeling soo brave to do that ?
i am just like a kid soo silly..
the things i wan..
e.g. i wan guys that will send me goodnight & goodmorning msg
and it must be a lonnggggg one <3>
come out from their mouth and heart.. and they mean it wad they say.
silly issit?
andi wan guys that can take over my weakness
and love my everything just like i love my ex's everything..
they can take it my hot temper they way i talk ..
i am no perfect like other people do ..
i don't know how to sweettalk! yes maybe sometime..
but not offten..
and i like guys that no matter what they do they give in their very besst
i wan them to wait.. cus i testing each guys paitence,
see how long they can wait.. this is how i test them..
i wan my husband to have a bright future..
that can take cares of me and my kids..
even it like far away but without a school there will be no future.
so wad ite? if they work hard in ite no one will looks down on them
ok your may say so wad ur husband works well study well,
but how about me?
yeah! you are rite i no school now..
but that is playful i did something that is serious..
i regreted. how i wish time can goes back ..
i will choose de right way ..
i now finding school..
but school will start nxt year.
and now i will be finding work..
anyway yea life sux
if you choose de wrong way of your life.

-sign off-

2009-03-04T07:12:00.000-08:00

Hey sorry guys. my phone now temp not in use...

Anything to tell me sms me my other no. {98959602} but i won't reply.

my mum take my phone for check.. and my SIM card,

cannot be use. i press wrong and lock it ._.

anyway Benny haha sorry you msg me the last msg ,

i fell asleep.. so forget to reply you! ps arh >.<

don't angry hahaha..

and i this few days not going out..

i grounded myself.

life sucks i know ..

without someone you love its more sucks!..

sometimes i really hate myself for being so playful..

and today is my mum's off day! haha

she brought piza for me to eat..

eeeeww not nice one lor.

they say what " If not hot next piza is free! "

lame shiit ==

its hot when they send .. but very fast its not hot le ._.

wdf bluff people one!..

so yea..

i really like it when me and my mum is shopping together..

and eats together..

maybe when i was small i don't have de meo that i eaten before with her.

but now i still have the chance..

i ate alot today.. piza dinner and cake..

haha alot!!!!

hmmm.. today my mum hand very pain,

i help her use ru yi oil to rub her hand..

while i was rubbing i rmb of him..

that time i come " M "

we 3 me and my mum and him was together at my house.

my mum was using ru yi oil rubbing my tummy..

then he was there watching..

my mum asked him

" you wan help her or not ? "

haha then he says ok..

and he help me to rub my tummy!

everything seems to rmb alot ..

and reminded me of him

>.<>

i just watch finnish the "一切完美"

its a nice show really!

i watched finnished and i cried..

me soft-hearted yeah!?!? haha

bhb :x

yea so today this is my life!

-PEACE YO!-

-sign off-

2009-03-03T03:30:00.000-08:00

Hmm is really quiet sad that -NeeT-ZhU quited fam today..

mama (-NeeT-xTea) is really sadd..

maybe one day he will come back bahh..

as what i told him no matter what he is facing don't run away,

must face de facts reality.

so what he choose i will suport him bahh..

cause i have the no right from stopping him its his life not mine ..

but still ya,

hope he choose the correct way of his life path.

today not many thing happen,

but still yea. I MISS HIM!!!!

he does'nt even cares about me / and how i felt...

i don't know when will my this kind of feeling stop

how.. really missed him ..

nv see him for 1 whole week le!!!

omfg what should i do from

thinking of him!! anyone can teach me?

HOW!!!!! i am soo ..

hais.. just don't why this guy make me fell so deep and hard..

life bahh.. its really soo unfair..

now days people ask me go out,

i don't even dare to go out.. haiiss..

school? finding..

Job? finding..

everything is in de progress.. of finding..

how about my love?

issit ready to be in the progress of finding?..

i think its never gona be finding..

it will only keep missing.. and waiting..

i am starting to wear more mask..

all my fake smile.. all my fake make up.. just to cover my eye black..

is all fake..

my world is always soo dark..

when will i see the light bub light up again?

like last time we use to be together? ..

shadows are all around me ..

i wan it to go away it really make my tear drop..

all i find love is from my boyf. but i really can't find love at home

i don't know why also ? ..

haha i am soo stupid got such a mother loves me

is only i don't know how to use de love

how i wish me and him now still together..

but wish is always a wish..

it will never come true...

you know what when people's birthday,

after you away de light and

most of the parents will ask you to make a wish

and most people believe that the wish you make will come true..

i don't believe in it.. that why my birthday wish i just close my eyes and said

" i wish nothing , only wan money & love " that all ..

in the end it still.. lol no love no money

so i learn birthday that time i shall wish

" i wish i can die now "

-sign off-

2009-03-02T09:04:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.. crying away with my tears now..just now fight with my mum..she will never understand me.. keep say i never do house work and never do that, i really cannot take it, she will never know when i did it or not , cause she will never cares. tell me when will i meet my ture love, i am still missing him when me and my mum fight.. his shadow is always by my side. if we now not yet beark i think he will call me and call my mum , help us settle all this, life without him really makes me sad. how i wish he is by my side now.? but will he willing to? Hais. really miss him.. i love him full-package his everything he is just soo perfect! makes me love him more.. i love his weakness even he don't have it but i do love him for his everything, why cann't i forget about him? the photo we take.. the thing you give me.. really make my heartbreaks. i still love you.. really i do..

My mum keep calling me find school, not that i don't wan to find is just that will de school wan me? life really makes me pissed off.. how? i today did a bad thing ><>slash myself again .. ok it really stupid and silly.. don't scold me ok ? .. i am so scared.. hais my mind so tired.. i feel like giving up everything that i have now, alot people says i am so lucky to have my mum, yes i know she is a very good mother, who cares about family stuff, not like other mothers don't give a damn about family like to go out and shop.. do things they like. this kind of mothers really hopless . i am so glad to have her sometime maybe sometime people not so perfect bah. or i misunerstand her? ... but sill can't like that one mah.. keep say my bad then don't really care how i feel it really hurt me alot.. i am soo stress of school , family , relationship , work .. how what should i do? to make my life more happy and not so stress .. friends ? .. hahaha funny.. she cares? LOLL. maybe bah ><>stress and full of hates and lies

-sign off-

2009-03-02T06:15:00.000-08:00

Hey! haha just reached home,
my mums face was like hack care.
cause i just fight with her before i when to mediacorp for campus superstar.
what the fuck laa. i was quite piss off ._. cus of the girl,
who is singing.. she should get in lor D: the C6 ..
even her voice not nice but is like better then Ai Jia.. ==
don't know how the fuck Ai jia get 40.5 ._.
just because campus superstar blog scolded the people who never let
Ai Jia in then the people now so hum ji let Ai Jia in,
cause they scared people go scold them unfair again..
so hum lor ._.
but nbm laa.. people there supporting also siao one..
keep shout, make my ear damn pain lor..
and one more unhappy thing is my mum ..
i told her about my friend habing baby,
then my mum say " why you telling me all this? you hab baby also issit? "
what the fuck .. have baby her lan la..
think what i so cheap meh? walao makes me sibei angry ..
i don't understand why she always think here and that
i know your maybe saying cause she love me too much ._.
but the problem is love me too much also cannot be like that mahh..
make me really piss off.. ><
i walk away and say " fuck off " to my mum ..
ok fine i know this is my fault for saying bad words to my mum..
but if my mum never says i have baby i will not scold her?
why when she talk she never think about how i feel? ..
why is she always so unreasonable? cannot she be like other parents?
more to like understanding ?
and i never meet cassandra today.. it really makes me more piss ..
she said yesterday night.
" tmr i will call you what time to go to kkh"
i waited for her call till 12 .. then i called her..
she say " i now with my mum how i go ur house or go out? "
.... i really very angry .. you know no matter what i do,
i will think of her.. like go out.. think of buying this and that for her..
but she never thinks of me..
i have one of her ticket to mediacorp for campus superstar ..
she cannot go ..
i really very angry! .. hais ..
you know what.. sometimes i really wan somethings from her ,
but she will never give me ..
all she gives me is empty promises.. which i hated it!!
now i shall write what i wan ..

THINGS I WAN :
1. Love
2. ice cream phone {pink}
3. iphone {black}
4. PSP {pink}
5. Rose {red/blue}
6. stress ball >< i wan all colours! i only hab orang & yellow
7. teddie bear! {a big one}
8. @cash?
9. ear rings. < from stead
10. ring. <

-sign off-

2009-03-01T05:03:00.000-08:00

Just come back frm dinner with my mum& stepfather.

eventhough we don't talk much but ya..

we still do go for eating sometime.

new year, i am always alone at home.. they 2 all busy with work.

who gives a damn about me.

you know what i hate?

eating alone.. is like hell to me, i don't know why too..

but just feel not good when i am alone eating.

haha today still de same.. miss him..

Oh i think he got new stead le bahh? i dk D:

but how still can't forget about him. my heart feeling so suan..

tmr going kkh with cassandra maybe will tell her how i felt.

she sure say that i am silly.. or what so ever.

but i know tat if i can't let go a guy i must'nt hab a stead ..

is like not being tiongxim to him.. cheating his feeling well my whole heart is not with him

will you like it if your stead still keeps thinking or missing her/his ex will you like?

no rite? hais.. i feeling soo pissed off when i know he got new stead ><

his mouth says don't have but i can feel he have..

his msn pms they way he talk its show it all..

how... what should i do? give up or don't give up?

people still down there waiting for my answer.

even i give up on him , but i don't have de guts to accept another new relationship!

i am sorry for those people that is waiting..

but.. love is really hard to get over

when you really falls hard enouff to get over of it.

stop telling me to get over and forget him

cus its really hard!.. the more you call me to get over him

the more i hate you.. so get what i am trying to say?

one more thing i really hate people anyhow touch me..

only my stead can? you get it?

not that i am trying to aviod you or what

is just i don't like..

i really can't wait to tomorrow i wan to meet cassandra up

really missing her like fuck ! haha ><

so scared i am a lesbo :x

but cfm i am not ?

i really treat all my relationship seriously

no matter is friends or stead i treat it like my life..

so yea.. cassandra was in trobble i was always by her side

ask her ..

when i was nt by her side? i never left her alone to face tai ji or stuff..

cus i love her..

she see le must be very happy :x haha.

anyway me still trying to forget himm..

is in de process..

-sign off-

2009-02-28T06:39:00.000-08:00

Its nite 10:54 pm
not late but i am still not tired after i eat my medicine
eeeww purple colour one YUCKS! the teast is like
OMG~look at all the photo i post the eye black.!
D: still looking for job.. but yet no one wants me.
i felt so hopless.. am i ? hais..
the doctor give me de medicine eat le i feel like vomiting..
feeling soo sick.. when will my illness get well..
thinking and crying
jimmy says " Is just 1 guy, there is 2 million guys out there! "
but the problem is .. How? i really love him everyday everynite thinking
even de sweet he gave me everyday look at it de bunny , de letter,
de rose , even de piggybank..
sweet.. lolipop { strawberry favour } i keep it in frige..
scared it will melt.. w/o frige it will gone..
it just like my heart.. w/o frige the sweet will melt..
the love we make. hougang mall.. plaza sing.. my house.
full of your shadow..
people out there teaching me how to let you go..
"get a new one find a boyf. .
go in audi make rm : I wan a BOYF. can i? ..
try and let go you silly biitch. dun be soo narrow minded"
tat wad "somepeople" says..
i dk you got read my blog or not..
but my words for you is ..
i really love you .. you know?
Jimmy, Shao xiang.
i am trying to let go.. give me time? ...
even though i may nt be like other girls so perfect out there.
but i really tried my best
your may nt wait for me. but i will be waitiing my heart is dead..
when he will never come back..
i will really try to let go.
let time show us everything? ..
i am not a very good girlf.
not very good at sweettalking.. not very good at study.. my future is blind
i have no goals. i ha no hopes
i have nothing but i just wan a love?..
when will i get it back? my last time the trust in guys?
i hope soon bahh ..

-sign off-

2009-02-28T01:25:00.000-08:00

hais.

even you get my body but you will never get my heart..

that all i wan to tell you..

i am like selling my body to you.. where my heart is nt wif me...

you kissed me..

you hugg me..

i totaly have no feelings for it..

i can only keep it to myself,

you know how is it feels like...

you will never know when your heart is nt with urself..

4ever .. my heart is dead ..

do whatever you wan, because i know tat i am nt in body at all..

seriously , i can't feel it when you kiss me & hug me? why is it happening to me?

am i really hurt by love again.

i don't work in geylang! i am not so cheap!

take it in mind.. i hate people anyhow touch me

without my permission! GET UR HANDS OFF ME!

i said it in my heart. i don't wan to hurt you that why

i never say anything when you touched me..

i am totaly not myself..

what should i do? what more should i say?

i just feeling that i am selling my body for love..

yes! i agree i am bad girl in sch

i threathen people.

i scold people.

but it all comes out with a reason why i do it? ..

don't you think so?

teacher scold the girl hu is in the wrong..

but they never tried to find out clearly who is in the wrong..

that why i hate school?

RULES? MISSION? " CHARITY , PAITENCE , DEVOTION "

mission? y not they try add JUSTICE ?

do they? NO they don't ._.

teacher all biased..

hate them..

boyf. ? FUUCK THEM!

from now onwards!

DUN EVER TOUCH ME..

i don't like it.. seriously cause i don't feel you touching me

so what is the point of you touching me when i felt nothing?

so let me go bahh? be friends is the best! ..

-sign off-

2009-02-27T18:38:00.000-08:00

Morning all [:

wake up by a good morning message!

haha..

today i feel like meeting cassandra

and tell her how i felt.. but maybe

she just have no time for me bahh! ?

try asking her later!

i still cannot get over the relationship wif me and him..

why do i hab such a strong feelings

for him?

am i so sick .. i find it ,its a sickness..

but i really do miss him & love him..

keep thinking when will him come back to me again.. maybe casandra will call me nt to wait

but its reali very hard , you know?

hard for me to get over of him..

is like i am still unable to get a new relationship,

people asked me for stead but i really don't wish,

cus i am really scared to have a new one and it get hurt again..

i am a gal .. even your / alot my friends think that i am strong,

but the fact is i am not , shall i try and get one new relationship?

and starts all over again?

i scared of history may comes back? ..

even i find a new relationship, he may have my body..

but not my weak heart..

GUYS! hais.. when will your earn back the trust in my heart again?

or its a never? ..

y am i like unable to sleep well cus of him..

unable to do things well cus of him..

y is all this happening to me? last time i am not like that!

life seems soo many changes..

soo many hard works to get all over undone.

once gals heart gone deep into de trip.. its never gonna take it out?..

i am scared! to hab new relationship again..

totaly don't dare to have it..

family.. nahh the care? yea they do..

but de ways they care de ways they say things

it my hurt me through! ..

they just need to learn how to communcite( don't know how speell)

with me.

haha de sweet you gave me is still inside my heart.

& de last lolipop you gave me..

i don't wan to eat..

keep it inside my deep deep heart..

even though its weak but it can take it..

take it all your love..

my heart is onli full of yours..

no one can go in.. cus it already full of you..

my mind , my mind and most impt is my heart..

they all will be waiting for you to come back again

maybe you won't but they will just wait ..

and wait..

wait..

till you comes back..

i will keep everything tat you gave me

and wait.

its silly i knoe

to wait for a guy when he loves you no more..

or maybe he hab a stead le? ..

hahaha laughing at myself for being soo stupid and silly..

but how? .. i am willing no one can stop it?

i am stress wif all my stuff..

stress with you . stress with schools , stress with work..

and family..

i just need a shouder to support me.. to hold me tight..

but you are gone. hard to be back..

iloveyou boy.

-sign off-

2009-02-27T06:04:00.000-08:00

My face is just trying to act happy?

or is really that i am happy?.

life.. really bring alot of fake smile?

maybe is trying show him how happy i am..

but the fact is i am not happy..

my eye black is getting damn obvious.

cus everynight not sleeping..

crying bahh.. can euu see de pain inside me ..?

when euu wanted to brk? or maybe just lose feelings?
i may nt be like other gals.. knoe how to sweettalk.

get ur feelings back..

iie don't..

de facts i am telling euu now is..

i love you..

maybe still love you inside my heart..

but you? do you?

really hard for me to let you go.. everynight thinking of

de things we did last time..

de place we go..

de thing euu gave me..

bunny?.. sweet? lolipop.. iie nevar even eat it..

you knoe y i nv gave you back de things you give me?

cus iie wan them to be wif me everyday.. at least let me see them..

cus 1st guy hu make me deep in love is you bahh? how many tear

i hab been dropping.. blood? ...

nahh iie don't slash ..

as i knoe i must start fesh..

but inside me still loving you deep.

4get me bahh... but i will nt 4get you..

iie will wait till you come back too me?

i hab no guts to say it all infront your face

cus i am scared you would nt hear..

maybe tat is wad cassandra say de true love bahh..

true love is even when your brk euu still hab a strong deep feelings fer him..

even he loves you no more.. but iie do..

is my fate same as cassandra going fall for this guy for a long time?..

iie cannt say it hu.. cus he dun allow me to say it too other ppl we stead..

iie must always keep it a mi mi ..

you knoe is how hard for me..?

but its ok..

pls.. someone bring me away..

iie hab been wifout him fer 3 days..

25 th Feb 2009...

hu ever going ask me fer stead on 25th.. no matter how much i love you

i will reject you!..

-sign off-

2009-02-27T05:39:00.000-08:00

hello [:

long time not posting..maybe emo-ing bahh.. life is full of tears..is not a good thing to cry over for a guy,when he don't love you anymore.? issit true? or is not? >< Me katherine.. now finding job! No school is really hell to me .. modeling? NO! teacher? NO! tat must be crazy! sales? maybe? OR maybenot.! haha.. frens are helping me looking around. stead? now single bahh.! he return me everything that iie give him for valentine.. rose? >< must iie wait fer him to come back? or maybe not... iie dun wan a boyfriend anymore.. iie wan frens.. tat are just normal.. justin and shir.. they are so sweet.. Justin put in alot fer her.. tat is wad love really mean not matter how hard issit fer justin at lest he tried. iie am trying to let go off him.. as wad my mum says... he left me maybe iie am hugging him too tight tat he cannt breath.. sometimes.. love don't need to hold too hard.. the more euu hold tight. the more he wants to run.. maybe at this age our stead is just a lesson and game bahh.. girlf.? .. haha maybe cassandra, but iie cannt relying all my things to her she hab a own prob too.. wad should iie do? find stead again? i am scared iie get hurt again. who can really bring me away frm my own world? a world is full of strangers.

a world full of lies..

a world full of hates.

a world full of money..

a world tat changes to despo of money.. iie really hate it..

who is de one can bring me out of this world .. and its only me & you.. no one esle.. Every night.. i am crying.. Every night .. i am thinking.. Every night.. i am waiting.. when will euu come.. i am soo scared.. of love ,frens, family, world..alot more.. the voice i am hearing? .. when will it GO AWAY! iie realy hate tat voice!.. i don't wan to be alone everynight. i don't wan to face everything i am facin now.. BRING ME AWAY! IIE HATE HERE!! SLASH?... SILLY WOULD EUU STOP IT! ...

-sgin off-

2009-02-17T19:27:00.000-08:00

啊啊啊啊！。。
爱一个人真的好难啊！

骗人的谎言。。
骗人的结局。。

爱情是个骗人的游戏。。
明天的爱都还会在吗？

以后明天的路。。
还要背着痛苦伤心的痛，
走下去吗？。。

我爱你。。
真的很爱你。。
你呢？

我该在你的心找
答案吗？。。

心好痛，
你感受得到吗？

以前的事就让它
过去吧！

放手是很难。。
但为了我的将来
我愿意放弃以前的事
重新开始。。

我的人生的路还很长啊

曾经爱过你。。